Losing grip

Raw emotions viciously claw at my throat,
I used to tell myself it was all a dream,
But the reality that you're gone has finally hit me,
As I crumble to my battered knees and let out a sobbing scream.

Your memory the faded echo of what we once had,
The last letter I wrote you lying on the floor,
The morning I came to say goodbye to you,
And you turned away without a word and slammed the door.

Heartbreaking sobs wrack my body,
Sobs that Are pointless to even try to compress,
I have nothing left to lose for me now,
I have no secrets left to sit here and confess.

I wrap my broken body in a ball and cry,
For there is not a single thing left for me to do,
I may have hated myself all this time,
But I forgot what it felt like to hate myself while loving you.

You helped me fight my own battles,
Battles that I knew I could not win,
I'm so sorry; I never meant to do it,
But I drowned you in the same water you saved me from drowning in.

Sick and disorientated in a whole new way,
Your words are thrown across my mind,
I searched a long lonely road looking for answers,
Only to realize that it was myself that I had only ever needed to find.

The kindling of a flame that once burned for our love,
Whimpers and dies out without a sound,
Leaving nothing but an empty, hollow feeling,
And I bury what is left of my heart in the ground.

I have fallen and gotten back up,
Fallen once again; slip after unbearable slip,
My strength is shaking I'm slipping on the edge;
Slowly losing grip.