Brenda all I can say is , you must end that soon.... :)

Great little piece.
Hugs

Brenda. Wonderful imagery! Its so sad. Sorry someone still has such a hold on you!..

Thanks ladies! Unfortunately it's my ex husband and I am dealing with him because our youngest daughter is getting married next year. She has a relationship with him which is fine and normally we don't cross paths at all, but this is something I can't avoid with him. We have been apart for 12 years now but whenever we unfortunately have to be in the same room it's not good. All the awful things he did during our marriage and during the divorce all comes to head. He's mad at me for divorcing him in the first place and has never gotten over that even though both of us have remarried to others. My now and forever husband really helped me greatly with letting go of all that he had done and it's a whole lot easier if I don't have to deal with him at all. I'm trying to rid his negativity from my aura, I'm afraid it's going to be a long 6 months until he's out of my life again. Sorry, didn't mean to just purge all that out, lol....Hugs you guys!

Hello Brenda.

As soon as I read this I knew this was a past relationship. I knew such behaviour would not be possible for your man. You only ever gush complete love for him.

Reading this goes to show that many of us only appreciate true love once we've experienced the harshness of 'control ' unfortunately this abusive control remains etched in our memories despite us wishing them purged.

I understand.

Hugs for your pain

Happiness for what you have now.

Take care,

Michael x

Its okay brenda! Sometines we just need to get things off our chest! Vent away

Brenda I can only hope that this control he has over you ends though I completely understand about he controlling behaviours' having a hold of us, my controlling relationship didn't end that long ago but I have to agree with Michael we only truly expect real love after hurt for whatever reason and I hope it doesn't ruin your daughters wedding. Big hugs!
Em

Very, very clever stuff Brenda. That's all.

Take care,

Ben

Thanks everybody. I truly appreciate all your words of wisdom and encouragement. Michael, absolutely this is not about my husband, he truly is the best thing that has ever happened to me. We both came from bad relationships so we make each day together something wonderful. Em, it's so easy to fall into these type of relationships unfortunately. I have come to the realization I just need to put on my big girl panties and make this special day the best for my daughter. He isn't going to change, as much as I hoped time would have tempered this. My goal is to create a memorable day for my daughter, knowing I will have limited moments in the rest of my life with him. He's (thankfully ) not who I come home to each night. So hugs to you all!

This is wonderful Brenda, in the sense that you are able to release these feelings through your writing. I've been there too, and you describe this amazingly well in this piece. Well done. Hugs to you-I know that wasn't easy.

There are some who still make us flip and melt,
make our stomach roll and tumble whether the relationship
turned sour or good...they have that control one we at times
wish it wasn't there...

Good read...