They sliceing makes me happy

I wish I could just cut,
Cut away at all the pain,
The pain that feeds inside me,
But leaves my blood to drain,

I get so sad sometimes,
When I look out of my room,
There’s a world just waiting for me, so much knowledge to consume,

But im stuck here in this place,
A place some like to call home,
But a home is like a family and I am all alone,
Just alone with my thoughts and my wondering mind,
I get wrapped up in the drama that I leave my sense behind,

But in away the slicing makes me happy by covering up past wounds,
I used to crawl up in my bed leaving myself to my own doom,

Sometimes I’d lose it,
And forget what is the day,
Because you had your fun,
With my heart that you would play,

And like to talk your mess about me in my face,
And act like I was nothing but just a matt you’d take your place,
So I felt so bad inside but I’d look down in disgrace,

I had to find a way to help to ease the hurt,
I never really noticed till you treated me like dirt,
How could you say you love me?
And then go behind my back,
I gave you all my love,
And now I want it back.

And as the blood goes down to touch your shoe,
In a puddle I have left myself,
Because of what you’d do.

But now im out in a better place,
People smile at their own pace,
Now one fakes,
What they’d like you to know,
And know its time for me too go.