Hi welcome to P&Qs
This is a great first write for you well to the poem anyway. I must say love is such a beautiful thing (can be with the right person) but so painful especially when you have to let your love go and be who they want to be and what's left of us but a mess?
I like the what you did there with this piece. The repetition of "so I really like this guy", gave this entry a diary like feel. As I was reading, each paragraph felt like it was a brand new day. Keep on writing.