Anorexic of Love

by Everlasting   Dec 10, 2016


I.

"I feel hungry,"

and so does she, but she has been starving
for long that now, she feels like vomiting
every time she intakes love words.

I think, she can't eat anymore.
She grew anorexic of love.

She fears to be fat or be disliked
for wanting to spread love all around the world,
she rather be thin or to the bones...

where no one will notice her or like her but her.

Except that her stomach or her heart
beg her to eat, so she can live

Yet all she can digest is but friend's love.

I think... she needs help.

II.

Today,

She feels like not feeding herself
with romantic ideas.
she just wants a beverage of loneliness
on this raining day,

perhaps a cozy bed and TV.
Who knows, music might just be enough,
Beethoven could feed her soul,
or Snow Patrol.

She just need to "Run" and to never stop.

she just wants to burn this weight in her heart

she doesn't want love clogging her veins

she fears a heart attack may come her way,
but she is too young or so she is been told
that she just need to exercise the idea of love
but they can't understand that she can barely breathe
with just giving it the thought.

III

Tonight,

she rather be left alone
while starving for this feeling that bloats her
to the core.

IV
But who knows, tomorrow
she could just meet that guy
who'll feed her with a therapy
of who knows what
and helps her fight against
this disorder that corrodes
her heart.

written by L.L.

back in uhmm... 2013? i don't remember. I forgot to write the date. Purely metaforical.

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  • 7 years ago

    by ddavidd

    The feeling is so genuine that one would say to oneself: why did she share this much vulnerably with audience? the answer would be: she is attempting to free herself by sublimating them, as Freud put it, to the art, to poetry.
    But another thought over power the first thought: she had all the time and chance to modify the feeling for the reason of making them more presentable to the audience. It is not like that she did it in front of live audience.

    So which one is it? Do we use accessory to hide or modify our true feelings? Freud answer is too obvious.
    But mine is that you , for example, would not do that, neither would I ( hopefully )
    People cork their real feelings of beauty, therefor their real beauties, with accessories and make ups. Unless, using them are, called for, by the circumstances.

    • 7 years ago

      by Everlasting

      Have you ever had a recurring feeling? or a poem call you several times? Or have you ever felt a feeling that sometimes isn't yours to feel but you feel it?

      All I know is that a writer feels what he writes and he writes what he feels.

  • 7 years ago

    by Em

    Pure genius.
    Hungry for love, who isn't? Ll

    Take care, Em

  • 7 years ago

    by Larry Chamberlin

    Excellent development
    From hunger that rejects sustainable human connection, to chronic starvation of affection such that mere glimmers give rise to revulsion, to that dangerous slide into emotional catatonic death. Your final section, while suggesting that healing is possible also indicates the tremendous obstacle that must be overcome: her own refusal to accept that healing is at all desirable.

  • 7 years ago

    by Poet on the Piano

    Ugh. I will comment more later. This hits SO many emotions.

    Love ya, Luce!

  • 7 years ago

    by Brenda

    Man, this is good! Loved it, using anorexia and love together, brilliant!

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