The one that got away

It's only been a week and already I can't take it.
This smile on the outside looks real, but you should know that I fake it.
There's nothing but sadness behind these blue eyes.
You gave me every chance, tries and more tries.
Each time I failed and I failed, now it's me who just cries.
I've lost all of your love and I'm afraid it's ran out.
Now I thirst for your touch, but there's no end to this drought.
So here I now sit with this regret and this pain.
I've done this to myself, I have no one else I can blame.
There's no fooling me, yes, I know there's no better.
Now the choice still remains do I stay here or just forget her.
My love for this girl, that flame will never burn out.
But no matter my decision this pain remains without a doubt.