Rusted Mornings

I've sat with these emotions
bottled up inside my head
countless wonderings like stars
whispering thing that never should of be said

I thought I would die without you
maybe in many ways I am
constantly the alcoholic
wondering why you ever ran

what makes me unlike prince charming
that you had to finally turn away
what about the idea of loving me
couldn't get you to stay

My son grows as I try find myself
how do I raise a man if I'm never complete
I once knew my soul mate
now I bare the burden of defeat.

I will die remembering you
fighting the urge to whisper your name
I don't know why I love you anymore
but nothing will ever be the same

rusted morning with a spirit full of ache
fighting my demons with every breath I take