Instead Of Dead

Momma, Do you think I'm insane?
Or Do I run round in circles?
Lookin for someone to blame?

Mamma why don't they treat me the same?
Or do they and I think?
But it's all in my head?
Out of millions of people,
Why am I the only one tame?

Father, why'd I end up this way?
I'm the youngest of the family,
Why am I the one that must pay?

Father, how can I make a change?
To feel the same inside as outside,
I must rearrange.

Sister, why were you so mean?
Pessimistic, but not in front of most people,
You totally know what I mean.

Brother, can't help but to think I miss you most.
Felt you when you left your body,
Lifeless with no host.

Brother, can you sent a message to the dead?
Tell all the people I just wrote of?
I'd rather be Alive instead of Dead....