Staying awake for some semblance of normality
When in reality, your choice devastated me
Let me go you said, binding my hands
You cast the die and unable to fight
You forced me to watch your descent
Minutes turn to hours, like my tossing at night
I struggle to make peace with the events in my mind
My existence frozen, seemingly paused
As if I'm on autopilot, I go about living
With a void within and rage's caress
Parts of me breaking under duress
I can't comprehend your dignified death
The breath caught in my throat as yours left
Peacefully though, in that there's no fault
Though it tore my heart asunder
Wistfully I struggle to forgive
This most selfish, callous act
You might have forced me to let you go-
But i'll never let go of that.
