It's a heart V.S mind thing

by Beautiful Tragedy   May 5, 2017


I just don't understand this;
Not at all.
I'm torn between being angry
with you for what you've done
But at the same time I miss you so much.
How is it even possible to miss someone who was just so toxic for me?
I guess I'll answer my own question..
Because that's just what happens when you love someone so much.
I spent all this time waiting;
Hoping that things would work out,
Hoping that the one I love,
The one in which I have so selflessly sacrificed so much for would change to be the person
I knew he could be.
But then before I knew it so many
Years passed me by and I was still stuck in the same place,
Waiting... and waiting.. and hoping.
And I can't do it anymore..
my head and my heart are feeling two different things.
My heart misses you,
And my head wants to hate you.
It's a heart V.S mind situation,
And I don't even know which
one I want to win,
Or if it's even a battle worth
fighting with myself.
This is exhausting,
And it's surely taking its toll on me.
I just don't know anymore...

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  • 7 years ago

    by Lost One

    "How is it even possible to miss someone who was just so toxic for me?"

    The same way I can feel so much pain from losing someone who I never even had a chance with. Unrequited love sucks. Anyone else miss the taste of penut butter?

    Eloquently put, you made me feel what you feel.

    • 7 years ago

      by Beautiful Tragedy

      Thank you. My emotions were high and I was on a roll. It just came out.

    • 7 years ago

      by Lost One

      Hahaha preach! Thats the best time to write. You get the truth out of yourself, whether you want to hear it or not.

    • 7 years ago

      by Beautiful Tragedy

      Exactly. Lol

  • 7 years ago

    by Naughtymouse

    Holy crap. Killing the game.

    • 7 years ago

      by Beautiful Tragedy

      What does that mean? Lol is that good or bad?

    • 7 years ago

      by Naughtymouse

      Lol it's all good, this write is awesome.

    • 7 years ago

      by Beautiful Tragedy

      Thank you lol. I think it started a venting/ journaling thing and just kind of turned out to be a poem. The best writes are always unexpected right?