Damnation Donuts

Jittery-talking like some kinda addict
You really had me going for a while there.
I thought it meant you were supposed to be a prophet in another kind of story
But you happen to land in the middle of mine.

Took a half step toward redemption and stumbled over my own laughter
I found I never could get over them telling me redemption meant forgiveness.
I understand I am not your usual kind of cynic but
How was I supposed to explain forgiveness to a boy
who's fists understood hatred before his mind had time to define it?
I couldn't explain it and so I turned my back
and now the church is looking at me like I've been speaking in tounges,
It's fess up or get out in here I guess,
How should I know?
I was overlooked and therefore got away with certain behaviors.
Sneaking out of church, for example, to wander the halls
Wondering if this meant I was closer to Jesus or further away
And not really feeling too invested in the answer.
If the eternal damnation of my soul
Rested on how many donuts I ate,
hiding in the coat room with the other troublemakers at church...
Shit, save me another one, those are my people.