*tears* This poem resounds with me so much.

J, first of all, sending much love to you in your situation. I am one with your sadness and I agree with you completely...that we are at the steering wheel. It's true we sometimes give in to this 'victim' mindset and instead of fighting against the flow, we find ourselves surviving by depending on the hurts- and we become so used to it that its absence upsets us even more rather than give us peace of mind.

Yet we still have to love. Such a raw and honest piece!