[Don't know what to name this]

Why do I
Always have to be
the first one
to message you,
To call you,
To reach out to You,
In order for us
To have a conversation?

Sometimes I think
That I'm pushing out more
Than I am receiving,
And that you only talk to me
When I start the conversation.

Why can't it ever be
The other way around,
Where YOU are
The first one
To message me,
To call me,
To reach out to me,
So that we can
Have a conversation?

But no.
That will never be,
Because you make me feel
Like you don't even
Care about our conversations.