Forgotten Ghost

Feeling like sh!t,
all over again,
wanting to scream,
not knowing who i am,
its okay,
it'll all be fine in the end,
but for now what do i do?
my pain will not mend.
tearing my heart,
ripping me up,
i just want to die,
but sorry no such luck,
I could take that razor,
and slit my wrist, watch it bleed
or swallow lotsa tablets,
a few to many maybe,
but this wouldn't fix my problems,
no not even close,
how am i to heal,
as a long forgotten ghost.
who will remember that girl,
who took her useless life,
who lifted up her wrist,
and slit it with a knife.
i wouldn't be remembered,
not now anyway,
so i will live on as me,
until a happier day.