Comments : Failings

  • 7 years ago

    by Scott Cole

    Great poem wonderfully written and tells it like it it. Alot of pain alot of hope but also alot of failures....

    • 7 years ago

      by Brenda

      Scott, thank you so much. It's been a trial and hopefully things will calm down soon. I'm working on giving my thoughts different ones.

  • 7 years ago

    by mossgirl19

    Queen Brenda, the situation you go through seems to be really a toil...and I can feel that this man child has taken its toll on you. I believe it's only a challenge for you our Queen...as it is said, to err is human...but to love divine. Awww, how hard it is...but it takes selfless love to love the unlovable. I love your strength in this write!

    • 7 years ago

      by Brenda

      Lady Mel, thank you so much. I'm really fighting with myself over these feelings. You are supposed to love your kids unconditionally and I'm failing at this.

  • 7 years ago

    by Em

    Brenda these things are entitled to test us and test us they do but I know that even though you think you're failing you are not. Take a breath, count to 10 and do the same tomorrow because I know that the wonderful you would or should I say could never give up on him or anyone else as testing as he may be. I hope that makes sense.

    Much love
    Em xx

    • 7 years ago

      by Brenda

      Thank you Em, I needed to hear that. Hugs!

  • 7 years ago

    by Ben Pickard

    Brenda, I will try to come back to this when I have a little time, but just know I have read it.
    All the best as ever.

    • 7 years ago

      by Brenda

      Thank you Ben...

  • 7 years ago

    by Michael

    Wow! Miss Brenda,

    Such an incredible heart-felt write, which plays heavily upon your heat-strings. Much admiration for your energy and love, but also the draining side I sense with having to deal with so much. Look after yourself Brenda.

    We can give so much in life, and feel that little comes back, I mean is that life owes us zilch! That's why we need space and time to conserve our energies to continue, with others and taking care of ourselves.

    I take my hat off to you lady, I really sense you give very much in life.

    Much love and warmth

    Michael :)x

    • 7 years ago

      by Brenda

      Michael, thank you so much. I truly do appreciate your words and wisdom. It's not an easy road, parenting. I have never shied away from being a parent, God knows I have had my ups and downs with my own girls. I just don't know how to reach him, his own mother abandon him when he was 7, he just started talking to her about 5 yrs ago, he's 31 now. He keeps everyone at arms length and lately hates everyone. It's been stressful to say the least. I am really trying to keep my sanity, both my husband and I are. I love him to death and all we want is the best for him , really all the kids, that's a parents goal. Just trying to maintain. Hugs to you Michael-

  • 7 years ago

    by Mark

    This is a very moving poem. It conveys your emotions and situation really well. 'Pills of my eternal happiness' is a particularly moving line. Well done.

    • 7 years ago

      by Brenda

      Mark, thank you! Yeah, my pills of eternal happiness have gotten me through a lot. They help smooth those road bumps.

  • 7 years ago

    by Sai

    As a daughter, I can't imagine making my mother feel this way. Sometimes we feel like everything we've done (all the sacrifices and such) is still not enough, but that doesn't mean it really is. I'm sure writing this poem down helped ease those self-doubts and disappointments. Loved reading this, all the best.

    • 7 years ago

      by Brenda

      Sai, thank you! Some of what he does, he knows better, other stuff, I know it's his illness. There's where my quandary lies, I hate when I feel aggravated and crazy when some of the simplest things arent done, ie; flushing the toilet....to me that's a common courtesy. I'm at an age where I don't have to clean up after kids, unless it's the grandbabies. Then I feel like crud because I am not being more understanding, this is where as a parent I feel like a huge failure, hence the write.

  • 7 years ago

    by Poet on the Piano

    Sending hugs and love. I am not a mother so I cannot possibly begin to understand, but I have respect and appreciate all mothers who do the best they can with what they're given. It hit home when you talked about mental illness as well because that heavily affects one side of my family and it's hard... my mom helps out a lot (as much as she can living in another state). There are some day it seems simple, and other times, I know my mom gets beyond frustrated. I know, just from seeing how hard she tries, that there's a lot of guilt but that in the end, my mom has to focus on her self-care and realize she can't do everything in the world.

    You have a pure heart and I'm wishing you a smoother road up ahead...
    take care <3

    • 7 years ago

      by Brenda

      Thank you so much for your inspiring and kind words. I'm trying to find a way to accept and understand him more without losing myself in the process. He's back in therapy right now and I hope that gives him more tools to deal with the day to day stresses. Hugs back to you and your family and the struggles you all are facing yourselves.

  • 7 years ago

    by Dagmar Wilson

    Dear Brenda my heart goes out to you please dont beat yourself up. You did the best you could and some more. I have a daughter like that I love her bit I keep my distance for my own sake
    She is toXic
    Keep praying and let me hug you.

    • 7 years ago

      by Brenda

      Dagmar, thank you so much for strength and kind thoughts. I felt your Hugs! I'm figuring out the best way to deal with him and not lose my mind.

  • 7 years ago

    by CJ Maleney

    Judging comment

    "Failings" By Brenda 7 points

    I found this to be a quite harrowing poem to read that triggered a lot of thought and emotion within myself and yet it pulls you in completely.
    Such emotion and frustration so effectively and fluently voiced you can't escape it although some of it makes your heart bleed.

    I can only imagine what it's like, not being able to bond with a family member, but from what is described within I can easily see how this would be the case.

    The last stanza actually got an audible "NO" from my lips. You are not failing, you're doing everything you can from what I perceive. That some people refuse to help themselves is unfortunately a fact of life.

    Incredibly well written and conveyed (7)