Forgotten Vow

You made me a vow
At the time I thought I’d never forget.
Seems my path has been lost
And is full of self-regret.
It seems you’re here to straighten me out
Remind me of your threat.

It’s been too hard for me
I’ve decided to hide away.
I couldn’t do it anymore
I couldn’t keep the cravings at bay.
I fell off the band wagon
And again began to stray.

You’re here to remind me to not give up
to keep pushing on.
I’m sorry my dear friend it’s my fault
I’m sorry I took so long.
I took too long to recognise you
And to remember you were gone.

You did it to yourself, I know
And people still continued to make fun.
People who pushed you that little further over the edge
who helped you decide to end your run.
I now realise it wasn’t all them or you,
It was a disease that you kept from everyone.

I should’ve seen the signs
I’m no longer surprised you decided to come.
As I am riddled with the same thing
And I’m again starting to succumb.
No more pills to sleep,
No more feeling lonely and numb.
In this vast expansive world
I need to stop feeling like a crumb.

I stopped talking to people
Because I was ashamed
I was on a path of healing
As I self-proclaimed!
And now all I have to show
is red eyes and hair that is untamed.

That old saying really is true
And I do sincerely appologise.
However I must say it now
And hope to get forgiveness from you guys

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It really hasn’t been you, but it’s been me all along
Turns out I was only wishing that I could be so strong.