Feelings of the depressed

If you aren't going to catch me
Then why make me fall
You broke my heart
Now I'm crying like a doll

You insult me bad
And beat me when I'm down
What did I do
For you to make me frown

I have a gun to my head
A knife to my heart
I'm sitting in the dark
With a lot of bloody art

I know I'm not cute
And no I'm not a Saint
But I have feelings
And this I restraint

I don't tell others
For they don't care
I have a pillow to my head
And im slowly losing air

I say I'm OK
And I say that I'm fine
But to be honest
I'm tormented in the mind

And I listen to my music
Yeah I listen to it loud
I try to ignore the pain
By drowning out the sound

And when I'm feeling down
i get some food
i eat away my sorrow
and try to get through

you say i'm fat
and you say i'm stupid
but i wanted to be happy
and finally find cupid

but you beat me down
and make me feel worst
yeah you make me feel bad
now i'm about to burst

i have a noose around my neck
and i'm standing on a chair
and now i'm getting worried
that my end has come near

my mom walks in
and she starts to cry
she sees me hanging there
up in the sky

i'm sorry mom
i should've told you
i see you cared
and you could've helped me through

if i could go back
i'd tell you it all
i'd let you help me
before i fall

i want to live life
and i want it to change
i want to be happy
and not be deranged

then i felt the touch
of god's almighty hand
this must be my chance
and it feels so grand

i rush to my mom
and gave her a hug
i'm sorry mom
and i don't need a drug

i'm so sorry
i never knew you cared
i feel so bad
but leaving you i couldn't bare

she starts crying
but tears of joy
its okay my love
now your life you enjoy

there is always someone
that cares for you so
they want you to be happy
and don't want you to go

and if you find them
your life will be better
now we'll end this song
with this very last letter