Owe it to myself

You want nothing to do with me;
I ruined everything for you
And you wanted to start over and try to fix things with her.
That's what they told me
And after I'd hung up the phone I
Didn't even cry,
I'd just sat there in complete silence;
Not even attempting to keep my heart from breaking.
You see I knew that someday I
Would lose you because you had a
Habit of doing that to me;
Walking away.
And I knew better this time,
I knew better than to let
myself fall back into the same old habits because they never
did anything but cause me more
Pain anyways.
I also knew better than to be
Disappointed because this is what
You'd said you wanted.
You'd "owed it" to them to try to
Start over clean and fresh.
But it's okay because
I owe it to myself to the same damned thing and that's exactly
What I've done.