this fairytale doesn’t have a happy ending.

how much time does it take
for a heart to heal ?
when does the “missing them” stop?
when will the songs stop reminding me
of what once brought a smile to my face ,
is gone & now leaves me with tears.
i hate you for doing this to me,
yet if you came back i would hand you back my heart , no question.
but your never coming back,
you have her,
you chose her,
but you told me you weren’t happy.
then why are you even with her?
is it because i’m so far away?
why do you keep holding onto me &
tell me you miss me ?
why do you give my heart hope
that someday
i’ll have you again,
maybe i don’t want you back ,
especially if you’ll just leave again ,
it hurt too much to see you
walk away the first time.
but you made me so happy ,
you made me feel a kind of love
i never have,
what i would give to have felt your lips pressed against mine, to feel you, to know someone like you can really exist . well the good parts.
& to not have you walk away ,
to stay ,
to be happy with me.
i wanted a life with you ,
to make every one of our dreams come true.
but maybe that’s all we were, a fairytale.
that didn’t have a happy ending.