Or without

These thoughts don't stop
When I'm loved or hated
The sky is still gray
When the sun is out
There are always too many clouds

I cannot see anymore
Who is here for me?
I know I'm not

I am a cigarette you light when you are most lonely
Or when the dark is too much for you
But when I ask for a light all I get is darkness

Why try at all?
When the day is done I'm still alone
When I'm with you
or without