You did a great job expressing your feelings, BJ.... this does NOT suck!!
Poems don't always have to rhyme or have a certain rhythm... lots of people write free verse.
But if you want to make a more traditional type poem, take all these feeling you have written down and find a common thread (the common thread I see here is that you always ask a question) Put those questions at the beginning of each line... that will give it a form... Here is a suggestion for the first few stanzas…..if you want more help, feel free to email me
What do you do…
When someone you hate
Needs a friend too?
What do you say…
When the one that you love
Doesn’t feel the same way?
What should you do…
When life seems to end
Is death overdue?