I Hate That I Love You

Daily tasks are written,
Daily memories are etched into my mind,
Why can't I get over you,
The fact that your eyes remind me of who I used to be,
You showed so much love at the beginning,
Now I don't even know who you are,
You just don't want to be alone,
That's why you're hopping from guy to guy,
When I never hopped from girl to girl on you,
I never toyed your heart,
The way you play mine like a violin,
I just wanna scream daily,
I HATE THAT I LOVE YOU SO MUCH,
You brought my heart love,
You brought it pain,
Why do I keep letting you fill it with both,
Is that why I've become a Kryptonite Dreamer?,
Is that why when I look in my eyes I just see a bare ocean,
Is that why when I see you with someone who isn't me,
I instantly know it won't last very long,
We were together for seven years,
And you threw it on the ground like it was nothing,
A piece of a trap,
A way to escape your own loneliness,
Taking it on someone who has been lonely for life,
I HATE THIS HEART THAT I OWN,
You don't understand what it's like,
To be torn like me,
You claim you do,
But every time you feel a little shred,
You run to someone new,
While for me I'm back in the shadows to where no one can see,
They won't see what you've done to me,
You torn my heart into pieces,
Guess that's what love actually does,
Or a false pretense of love