It was 2 years ago and all that shit which happened is unfortunately true.
The scene takes place in France ,in a little holiday village.
I had a beautiful friend named Helenae,and i love her ,i used to..
She was tall,pretty,enjoying life,a beautiful smile and she was my age.
We were very close and i used to tell her that she was my everything.
I showed her that I could do anything to show her what I am feeling..
But, one night,we were together walking in a dark little street,
We were laughing like 2 teens enjoying holidays, we walked a lot and so we had a sit.
She was telling me how good it was to be with a cute guy like me
And she was becoming my girlfriend without i realise..
And so we passed a great moment:just her and me.
We were still awake 2 hours before the sunrise.....
Then we walked again on the street,we were in our paradise
Ignoring everything around,because we were feeling so good
Her eyes were shining,and were lightening my life, but it wasn't a surprise:
She was my first love and it was the best day in my life:she was so beautiful,touch wood!
Out of our minds we didn't hear a car coming
This car was running fast and we didn't give it importance
The driver didn't see us and was runnig fast and maybe drunk!It has no sense!
He was maybe just at 50 meters close and we were still in the middle of the street laughing..
We were like drunk and petrified but i was late
Late when i saw helenae knocked over!
She was projected 15 meters further
I was under shocked,couldn't move any part of my body,i was too late....
Then the car ran faster and i was unable to do anything
Why did not the car knocked me over too???
Is it better to be dead,or to see someone dying and you cant do anything?
After i realised what happened,i ran to her and tried to do anything to resuscitate her...but what can i do?
She was lying on the ground,i tried to find her pulse but she was already in her paradise
I was screaming,and asking god why!!!I started crying,i was alone in front of the sunrise
I started to feel guilty,why I wasn't at her place?
Why I didn't move or something??But i had finally to face
That life is unfair, i swear that it everyday haunts my mind,
She was the one,she was like a rose in a beautiful garden kept secret..
She was the one i loved and anyway she will always be mine
And after i called people to help me,i fainted down...
I didn't talk to anyone during maybe 1 year,i was still in my world of dying and depressing
I lost the taste of life,i tried so hard to find pleasure but it was without result
I will never forget it and I'm still asking god why didn't he took me with her,i felt the sentiment of disgust
World-weariness was the only thing which was crossing my mind,a lot of days i was wondering
Wondering if i will see that pretty face again,I'm sorry baby
I would do anything to change the past because I'm guilty
Now i hope your spirit is enjoying and that you are not sad
Me i am,and I'll always be,I'm never gonna be proud!!
I lost my love and i did nothing to resuscitate her....
I'm gonna think of you forever
Know that I'm sorry for everything
And even if you are not here I'm still here for anything
In the memories of Helenae who was the last person who deserved to die
This is a true story which destroyed me from the inside
I hope that she will be able to read that poem one day
Because i need her by my side and i know what i say....
Copyright?2004 by samz
