last night

last night i cried myself to sleep
as tears soaked my pillow top
I cried uncontrollably
but the tears just wouldn't stop
I drank a 5th of liquor
hoping it would end my sorrows
I wanted to end my life
with no hope of seeing tommorrow
depressed I'm at my worst
these thoughts are running rapid
I can't seem to cope at all
this life itself is vapid
you seek help you can't find it
yet the good Lord answers prayers
I prayed many times but honestly
I think God just didn't hear
so what else do you do
where else could you possibly turn
people give you advice about what your going through
but out of it what exactly do you learn?
the 0dds are against me
im sinking in my own tears
I've been fighting this battle now
for quite some years
noone knows what im going through
there's days i want to end my life
or take my wrist squeeze it
and draw a line through it with a knife
hopeful to an extent the blade only cuts so deep
so 10 pills i guzzle down to help as i sleep
overdosing would be weak God i'm so depressed
you said you'd never leave nor forsake me
so please deliver me from this stress