To.....

If I you find me dead and bleeding,
Just remember these words from your young bright seedling.
All of the years you have put me in the middle,
And most of those years I had said little.
The last few years could have been better,
And I seal my death with this one last letter.

To my Mother,
The only thing you ever did good was give me a brother.
You have hurt me all my life,
And until tonight I would always fight.
Now let me ask you something for you to see.
How could be a good mother while smoking weed?
No you never could see,
Because the medications made it hard for you to be.

To my Father,
All I ever was to you was a bother.
I was just one more reason that you couldn't do what you wanted,
I always stopped you before you started.
Now let ask something of you,
How could you drink and be drunk and never do?
You drank and drink till you hearts content,
Never once asking for my consent.

To my Brother,
I am sorry that you have my Father and my Mother.
For what kind of parents sell their son weed?
Maybe they were just asking for me to bleed.

To Kim,
I wish you good luck with him.
Branden loves you and you love him.
We may have only been friends for a year,
But it was a friendship that none could wrongly steer.

To Branden,
You sometimes had me saddened.
It took you a long time to realise that Kim is for you and you are for her,
Even though her mother may call you an insolent cur.
Take care of her and she'll take care of you,
No matter the obstacles you may go through.

To Joey,
How i always strive for you to see.
I wish that you can understand
That you as like me a part of the earth, sea, and land
That i can teach and be taught
With out even a single thought
But as the wheel turns
My heart yearns
That you will someday know
That i would never ask you to go
I've told you everything
You have made me realize that i am worth something
That with trust and a heart
No one can rip me apart
We both seek for something to hold on to
And trust me it wont find me before you.

And last to all of you,
Most of you I wish I knew.
These are my words that I say from my past,
If you find me dead at long last.
I love you all I hope you know,
Now can all of you just let me go?
I trust that you can,
Just remember me for I will always be Sam.