This is how I feel

I'm drowning in a sea of feelings.
He doesn't notice the tears falling down my face.
He doesn't notice the words my tears say.
He looks at me and expects me to forgive and that how he treats me is okay.
He wants me to understand but he doesn't try to understand how his words and actions make me feel.

This is how I feel.
I feel neglected because you yell and cuss at me like a crazy person.
It's supposed to be okay because I'm supposed to learn your lesson.
It's supposed to be okay because you need help.
At the end of the day nobody notices the toll it takes on a person.
I feel like a dog and like I should bark.
You treat me like I shouldn't have a heart.
Everybody looks at you and says well he's sick he can't help it.
I told him I'm not good enough for him and from the bottom of my drowning heart I meant it.
I'm drowning in a sea of feelings.
He doesn't notice the tears falling down my face.
He doesn't notice the words my tears say.
He looks at me and expects me to forgive and that how he treats me is okay.
He wants me to understand but he doesn't want to understand how his words and actions make me feel.

This is how I feel.
I'm invisible to your sickness.
it shouldn't affect me.
I shouldn't feel worthless.
I should let your temper tantrums go because it doesn't hurt me.
I shouldn't have feelings because your more important.
i shouldn't feel deserted.
in the end I have all these feeling but it's not okay to feel because you're the only one hurting.
I'm drowning in my own feelings.
nobody's trying to save me.
so at the end of the day why try.
just let me be.