Life

I sit around contemplating the way my life was to the way my life is.
So many things have happened; I keep the pain I carry hidden deep within.
I've been through more then most could ever comprehend.
Most nights it's hard to sleep dreaming of the past that made me this man.
Silently praying for forgiveness knowing my sins will always exist.
One day saying I'll change but still remaining the same as I have been.
Memories of my past haunt me; eyes open or when I sleep.
It's like a horrible life story stuck on repeat.
Barely smiling never crying I'm emotionless regardless of what others see.
I've been through alot but I know my past doesn't make my future; that's only something I can create today for tomorrow to be better then yesterday.
Unlike some I carry my scars proudly; because without them there wouldn't be a me.
I sit around contemplating the way my life was to the way my life is knowing how it will be only I can change or fix.
Just remember yesterday has already happened; today will past yet tomorrow isn't promised for you or me to see.
Make what you want happen happily..