It is raining & my rainbow never came

*True story*

I remember when I first saw you
Nothing too it I looked right passed you
No second thoughts about you
Until I saw you again weeks later
Have a conversation
Of sparks flying from my heart too his
That sparkle in his eye
I can still remember it
It could’ve brighten up the nights sky
I looked away
And smiled with relief
He can see me
I thought!
He can really see!!
See me for who I am
And not who I portray to be
After that I couldn’t stay away from him
Obsessed with even the thought of him
See I have never met
Loves face before
Until this
Sad to say I was in that love boat alone
Blinded by what I thought he was
Him trying to change me
In too what he had
I went alone with it
I got cut at
Tailored until I was
Unrecognizable to myself
I smiled
And said I’m compromising
But I loved that man , I thought
And I still do ,
No longer together
I had to moved on
But on the fourth year on trying to forget YOU..
It’s hurts to say but I don’t want too
See ..my worst fear is coming true
I can’t seem to let you go
Now I’m with someone else
That treats me way better
My feelings for him are mild
I’m warming up , I tell myself
But I should be on fire by now
Yea but just take your time ——
Ok, but it’s been a few months
How much time do you need?
I don’t need time , I need closer , I SCREAM!
See I have gotten open HEART SURGERY
But I wasn’t closed up PROPERLY!
I still have all of these scars ..SEE!
And its STILL raining NO..its POURINGG
And I see no rainbow in sight
Just lost & regret for what I thought love should be..