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Taking pills..
Smoking cigs..
Snorting coke..
Drinking lean..
Whatever it takes..
To stop the pain..
Constantly numb..
Self inflicted..
I'm dumb..
Double vision..
Get me high..
Ill be okay..
Just want to get..
through another day..
I wanna get high..
But I know its wrong..
Want these feelings..
Want it all to stop..
My anxiety unlocked..
Drugs drugs drugs..
Where have I gone..
Sometimes life is to much..
Not where I belong..
I was doing so well..
Until I relapsed..
But nobody knows..
I lost myself..
Trying to help everyone else..
Being to kind..
Having a good heart..
No matter what i do..
I still fall apart..
No one who gets it..
I'm usually alone..
When all I have to do..
Is pick up my phone..
Maybe someone will answer..
Someone will pick up..
But that's not how it works..
Ain't had that kind of love..
Except for a few..
But they so far away..
I wish I could see them..
At least for a day..
Instead I chose drugs..
Don't know another way..
Taking pills..
Smoking weed..
Snorting coke..
Drinking lean..
Whatever it takes..
To stop the pain..
Let it take over..
Let me fade away..
Swear ill be fine..
Just one more day..
Just one more pill..
Can't do it for my health..
Just for the thrill..
I'm trying to be free..
Without any cost..
Little did i know..
I almost lost it all..
Got arrested..
Set in jail..
Not for long..
But it didn't go well..
I was embarrassed..
I was scared..
Lost some friends..
Family as well..
I, myself, has almost died..
Getting terribly hammered..
But I'm still doing fine..
Wake up the next morning..
Can't remember a thing..
