Love so deep that you just want Out.

Everyday has been nothing but a challenge
no matter what I do or say
no matter how hard I try
my heart still obeys.

I've come to a point where even if I've been neglected
that I will try for the better
try, to make it work out
but everything seems to short, I fallout.

I constantly keep reaching
to something that won't even lay a hand out
but I'm in so deep
I now do nothing but weep.

I ask for nothing more than to be noticed
noticed from no one else but you
but you push me aside
while you create all these lies.

All I ever wanted was to be loved by you
to feel you caring for me once again
but everything I do frustrated you
I just wish we can go back to the way it used to.

I come off strong minded while being reasonable
and that's one of the reasons you've fallen for me (or so you say)
I am still the same
what happened to us?
I have done nothing for you to question your trust.

Your trust for me is one of the most important thing I cherish
I love you so much my heart aches
but what have we come
Once I give up, there will be no more retakes.

I've questioned myself multiple times
why do I put myself in situations like this
why put myself through so much pain
I am starting to lose myself, starting to feel inhumane.

I now want nothing else from you...
not even your attention..
nor your commitment..
I JUST WANT TO BE FREE AGAIN...

02-15-18 @ 1445hrs