Courtney, I don't know how far the investigations have gone so far. However, if you are just starting out along this road, there is still hope - there is always hope. I feel your anguish and hear your fear. I hope all works out well for you, there really are many options open to you.

This is hard to read Courtney as your pain is so raw and I really feel for you. But I can't not say ... there's more than one way to be a mother and it does not make you incomplete to not carry one yourself. But I'm not in your shoes and can only imagine how devastated you feel. Sending hugs xx
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