I'm heartbroken, my emotions exploding.
Wanting to help but not having any control in the situations your in.
Tears flowing depression has hit again.
Trying to give you my hand to stand.
But your smacking it away as if I don't even exist.
Panic attacks back to back I pray and wish for this all to end.
I'm hurt knowing your lost having a war I can't help with.
I'm suppose to be the protector but your not giving me that chance.
I wish this was a bad dream but reality makes sure to ruin any hopes of waking up to the bad happening.
Dear lord please give me a chance to hear what I'm trying to speak.
I whisper in my head for fear of others to judge me.
I'm angry cause I'm sad but can't show my true feelings.
Been emotionless all my life holding back the past that made me this way.
As I grew up I learned to hide how I feel sadly.
It gave me strength to press forward through the pain I created or made.
Never asking for you to watch over me.
Only ever pleaded for your guidance for my friends, family and even my own eniemies.
Now I'm on my knees begging and pleading for you to watch over someone in dyer need.
Give me hell for them to see the light in the dark to help them succeed.
To make it through the troubles and hopefully they'll find peace.
I'll take the pain; I'll carry the weight.
Tie me in chains, throw me away whatever the pain I'll take it for them to be safe.
I'm sorry I just need help desperately.
In Jesus name I speak. Amen..
