A plate full of it

I have taken on this journey
a road I have travelled down numerous times,
a cul de sac, me going around in circles.
I am scared, I definitely am.

What do they want
it's not what I need,
this daily drama is making me sick.

Right, wrong
I have made a promise to myself,
no more engaging in foreign affairs.
Who am I fooling?.

This plate sitting in front of me
is loaded with calories of garbage,
doing the right thing is backfiring again.