GONE, feeling gone dead worthless like no one would notice if I was gone. Not even myself yeah I just said that not even myself. I am questioning everything done. Crying, Talking, Breathing, Thinking, Doing school work, Blinking, Anything else needed to live like eat, drink. They all say it is normal but to me I feel like an outcast never good enough for anyone including myself. Like I am all alone in a dark hole screaming for help but yet no one seems to hear. Wondering every day hour second if I am okay to still be alive. You did this to me. No matter what I will never be so called NORMAL. Normal as possible. Wanting to cry but can’t because it will show weakness and you need to feel strong. You lost all control and now you can only can control one thing what goes into your body aka food intake. So you stop eating and drinking you feel better but now you are tired all the time and no one understands why you are like this but you do. You feel too fat to do anything but yet it is impossible. You lost so much weight and no one knows why so you now have to tell them what is wrong and what is going wrong in your life.
Well what is wrong is I stopped eating and stopped trying to do life, pretty much killing yourself to make the people around you happy even though you don’t want anything to do with them.
