May 18, 2017
Dear whoever found this,
It may be to late but at the same time it could be at the right moment. I hope it isn’t too late. Because if it is too late then i am already dead. Because no one was there to stop me. No one cared enough to get me the help I needed and need. Well I guess it was the end. I want you to know it was not your fault. The blame is going to the ones who picked on me and called me names my whole life. My so called friends but in reality they were just using me for information for other people. I wish I could have stood up. But I guess I was too scared to not knowing was going to happen if I was to tell. I heard kids call this girl a snake because they were bulling her and she told. Well she thinks about killing herself every day every few days. That doesn’t matter until the end does it? Well wrong it matters before and after. The people at the school I used to go to and the one I do go to. Well they never thought I was good enough. So they called me names so I stopped eating so much lost 15 to 30 pounds within’ a few months. Well and they think they are “cool” because they don’t really know how much they hurt that person. They think we other people the main target don’t have feelings well guess what we do. Just because we don't express them the way you doesn't make it okay for you too bully. Bullying is way out of hand anymore. And I want to take a stand. We go to school for an education not to bully or call names and talk behind peoples backs. The educators don’t understand I guess on how bad it is getting. Since the new show 13 Reasons Why. I have been looking around and seeing how it has changed how people and the way they express their feelings. It hurts to know that they didn’t know how to express their feelings because they were scared of getting bullied and when they do and then they start talking about suicide then people start listening but only when you mention something about cutting or hanging yourself. And the people who do come around don’t really care about you. The bad thing is after they find out what is wrong they leave you and go spread rumors about how emo and suicidal you are. Well and everyone wonders why kids are getting diagnosed with anxiety and depression? Could this be the reasons why? Do I need to go into more detail? Because i hit most of them head-on. I get this hurts to read but it is the truth and sometimes the truth hurts. But most of this is a fact no opinions and trust me you don’t want my opinions in this I am just stating the facts. So stop trying to sme those who have lost their lives and move on to figure out the next child who is thinking about doing it. This could save so many children's lives with one kid at a time. And then maybe kids will be able to open up and talk to you. Kids have started going to each other and stopped going to adults because they are going to get judged either way. So why not get judged by someone you trusted instead of someone you don’t trust and then let them talk behind your back to other teachers to keep an eye on you. To report if they see you acting weird or if they see things that shouldn’t be there. What would rather deal with? I pick neither the reason why is because deep down everyone does deal with having a bad day, but not everyone needs to think about cutting or killing yourself. Deep down no one should and if they do then they need help. But if they aren’t accepting the fact that they did cut or tried to overdose on pills then then they aren’t ready to get help. I now know what it feels like to cut, all the problems are gone when you do cut and most people say it only helps to get your mind off things when you are doing it but then for me all the problems were gone and didn’t come back.
