Can't breath, don't know what to do
Can no longer calm down
chest tightening and life flashing before my eyes.
Every moment gone by yet just this line.
this will never get better.
It is just your mind playing tricks on you AGAIN,
Freaking out for no reason,
Staying up late just to have your lonely time.
I would rather be lonely than
be around people who make me feel lonely.
Yet still no one understands how painful this is.
How hard it is to focus on here and now.
Dissociating for no reason all because you can feel him hurting you again.
The pain is real, so is are the day tears and the night tears.
But when they said grow up and stop reminiscing on the past...
Hard to when the past is our life and they don't understand what the hell this means or how it feels,
Let alone how hard it is to get up and go to school with a smile on your face.
Checking to see if you can see the open wounds on your legs or arms...
They don't understand now nor will they ever.
