As I walk away from you
I can feel the sorrow seeping from your soul
Even while my back is turned
This was not how we were meant to end up
We weren’t supposed to take separate paths
Misery and confusion chained to our ankles as we walk
But I see no other way to go about this
We just couldn’t work
I tried so hard to keep things together
It all kept slipping through my fingers
And every time I picked up the mess
The situation was even more jumbled than before
And now you sit before me
With that fake smile plastered to your handsome face
False laughter bubbling from your chest
Your behavior confuses me
Did it all mean that little to you?
The time we spent together
The words and feelings we had shared
Was it all a show?
Or is the way you are acting just a wall
To hide the true feelings you hold?
I wish this wasn’t so broken
The pieces smashed to dust
Impossible to repair
But this is what it is
And as my heart begins to harden
To block these thoughts and feelings from view
I push you farther away
As is my habit
Creating discontent and even more hurt
An avalanche of mistakes
Falling on my chest with the weight of heavy stones
And I am not powerful enough
To lift, control or even halt these things
I don’t know if I can handle this
I may just slip over the edge
Into a pool of turmoil
Clinging to the lost hopes of what could
Or should
Have been
