Tethered

I want you, in all ways possible.

I want to grow old with you.

Laugh with you. Pray with you.

And most importantly, be with you...

but where he’s my stability, you’re my dangerous path.

He keeps me grounded but you uproot me in ways I never want to admit.

You’re like a breath of fresh air… but in that same breath, you deplete me of everything,

Ruining my life but I love how scary you are.

How you can make me rethink every decision I have ever made.

How you can push me to want better for myself.

All in all, you’re bad for me and I know it

But there is a part of me that doesn’t care if you are.

There is a part of me that is scared to move on because if I lose you,

I may as well stop my own breathing.

And if I have you, I will never be truly happy.

You have a hold on me that’s ominous and exciting, deadly but welcoming.

I embrace all the darkness when I envelop in your love.

I embrace every piece of my blackened soul when I’m near you.

And I hate it but I love you.

And for you,

I’d be anything you want me to be,

Including a tethered soul.