Cant Take Anymore

OK I totally totally get this being heartbroken when you thought "finally, this is it" when in retrospect it really wasn't because 'the one' doesn't hurt you, not intentionally anyway and if they do you know they're sorry because of how they act, they don't have to buy you roses or chocolates or grovel they just act upon the words 'sorry' it's weird to explain but 'the one' knows that they've hurt you and makes it up to you without making it up to you at all if that makes sense; as an example: I was in an abusive relationship for a few years and escaped just so this makes sense anywaysss I was at my other half's at the weekend and I spilt a drink whilst he was getting changed and was really upset when he came down and he asked me what was wrong so pointed to the kitchen roll I'd placed on on the spillage (carpet) and his instant response (jokey) was 'stop being a whingey b itch' and he didn't realise what he'd done to upset me at first until he'd thought back and he was instantly apologetic but hugged me until I'd stopped crying and even then wouldn't stop anyway I guess what I'm trying to say is, is that no one is worth getting drunk over because the heartache will still be there that's coming from experience as I was made to drink to forget or should I say not feel what my abusive ex was doing (se xually) but then in the morning realisation would set in and I just knew.... Here if you need to chat bless ya xx