Drained Me

My heart still beats for you..

Like,
the not so subtle beatings
you have etched into my brain

Every time you whisper in my ear.

My heart still bleeds for you..

Like,
The bruises you have left throughout the years.

My eyes still search for you..

Even though they see
the abuse you have given me.

Or how you put your arms around my waist..
Refraining me from breathing.

Or how you'd say you wouldn't go anywhere..
As you'd be leaving.
And
I believe, you promised
You wouldn't..

Then get so upset with me
For absolutely nothing.

Forcing fear down my throat,
Every time I heard you say my name..

Playing with my emotions
Like I'm some kind of game.

You would only ever say sorry,
To defend your sore lack of shame.

My heart no longer beats for you.

There's only so many scars a women can handle.

I couldn't possibly miss you,
As you visit
my horrid dreams often.

Where I seldom picture myself in a coffin..

Thinking that was my only escape.

My heart no longer bleeds for you.

As it has bled many tears already,
Tired and exhausted..
From all the misleading.

I've had enough being your slave.

Only needing my comfort,
When you've had a rough day.

I'm sorry though,
You can't see your dark ways.
The pain that you've caused,
Never goes away.

Although,
I've grown kinda use to it..
I still always hoped you'd fix yourself.

For my damages will heal.

While you remain in hell,
You created
All by yourself.

Draining me..
of my wealth,
My freedom and
My health.