What a funny word,
To describe the way I am feeling right now.
Because really,
Whom ever made this diagnosis,
Must have really thought, "maniac",
But decided against their better judgement of it.
So we take out the "a".
That's better fitting for social standards.
No one ever wants to hear "maniac",
Let alone deal with;
A "maniac".
So I'll even further push back,
And hide this awful disease.
A disease that effects millions.
A disease that no one can fully understand where it stems from.
Let alone the person experiencing it.
Nor give any allowance as to,
How to truly and fully articulate the pain,
That is so heavily associated with it.
But I'll take it...
These small social graces.
Because, that's what I do.
For I am a...
Manic,
Manic depressive,
Manic bipolar woman,
Who unwillingly spirals into complete mania at times.
Oh!
But by God...
How I do feel as if I lost my mind!
I feel quite displaced,
Lonely,
Frenzied,
Foreign...
And much too crazy right now.
