There was a girl inside of me
ignoring signs of our love breaking quietly,
hoping that she would soon find an answer
that might be the saviour of us.
But that was then, and this is now.
I am nothing like I used to be.
I accept that nothing is forever
and it looks like no one will ever truly stay.
There is a lot I go through in my mind,
wondering what I have been chasing
that has caused this raw pain inside of me.
Then I stumble on that part of me
that just won't let you go.
The part of me that still loves you,
and I hold onto that in my warped mind,
that believes you may still love me too.
I wish I could cut out the heart that cares,
even if I lose myself and I turn cold,
because I am tired of hurting this way,
I am tired of feeling this pain.
I'm letting self hate win,
and no complicated theories of psychology
are going to change my mind.
There was a little girl inside of me,
but I have crushed her hopes and dreams,
as she now knows that no one will ever truly stay.
