Broken beyond repair

I am not whole anymore
I am broken beyond repair
and no one knows

Maybe I am good at putting on a fake smile during the day
But at night my demons come out
and I can feel everything all over again

My broken heart cannot heal by it self
And every night it feels like it is breaking all over again
It has been almost 6 years
But I still crave your touch
Or maybe I just crave someones touch?

At night I feel all alone again
Just like when I was with you
I do not know how to heal
But I try, I try so hard
But no matter what I will forever be broken beyond repair