It’s like I’ve been here.
I can’t decide if
these roads know me,
or I know them,
or somewhere in between.
How have I circled back to here?
The characters are new,
the time is new,
the place is new,
I am new,
and still I’ve ended up here.
Here, where love and nightmares
make sweet lust together,
over the threatening corpse
of my invaluable friend.
The powerlessness,
the despair,
the fear,
the loneliness;
they are not new.
I know them -
in my sleeping,
in my waking,
in my love for you.
Your life,
the treasure I hold,
the one you throw aside,
it wanes again,
darkened by
the demons in your mind.
My love, my friend,
my past, my present,
I fear a future with no you.
Here in this gap,
between life and death,
I fear I will forever lose you.
