It's been a while since I last wrote
I've lost my drive to feel and quote
No longer can my heart devote
When it did, I had nothing but a knotted throat
As the years went by, I learned and healed
All those emotions I had to keep concealed
I built a cold heart as my best shield
And my emptiness, I never once revealed
I've changed so much it's hard for me to believe
That I once lost a love and lived in bitter grieve
Today I look back and smile at what I've achieved
Evolved into an evil, wicked and meant to decieve
I'm more numb to feelings than a coke user
May be the main reason why I lost her
It's just so hard to accept that I'm the loser
No matter what I did, I could not amuse her
Yet my future took a sweet turn in life
I met a good woman and made her my wife
I gave her my best, never showed her my lowlife
Yet my past would always dig in me a knife
And maybe that's the reason why I sit here
No matter all my success, my peace isn't sincere
The fact that I may still love my past is my fear
A love that i try every night to drown with beer
I hate how all these years meant nothing
I still hold tight to you my child, my dear
One day I'll die young of something
Please keep my heart as your souvenir
