Hey Emily,
I can't think of the song right now but this poem made me think of lyrics about ignoring demons or giving them a voice. Perhaps by writing about them, we can find a way to overcome.
I personally know what it's like to have no energy or motivation or will to move forward... it's something I would never wish on anyone. I hope there comes a point where you want to move forward and live for YOU. Because that's what should matter most. Let your voice be heard above the demons.
Here if you ever need to talk. Take care and thanks for sharing all you're going through here. I hope the burden becomes lighter soon.