A Face Better Kept Hidden

by IdTakeABulletForYou   Oct 12, 2018


Mine is a face better kept hidden.
A screen, a wall, a roof, the darkness...
I do thankless favors to all those around me
by hiding it; though, selfishly,
I do it for myself.

I did not knit this face
painstakingly over the many years
like one would a quilt.
It would be quite different if I had.
Instead, I endure a life of judgement,
carefully treading its waters:
afraid to be seen,
afraid to be saved;
scared someone will try
and, in doing so, see me.

I am drowning slowly,
but that is for the best.
What I see in the mirror is
what no one else should
have to see.
What I see in the mirror
is me,
the mess of a knit-job
botched from the beginning
by a supposed merciful creator
who can do no wrong.

Well, I am that wrong,
and no one sees it
because I don't show them.

-IdTakeABulletForYou

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  • 6 years ago

    by Maple Tree

    I cried with this poem and I want to hug this writer for sharing this poem with us this week because he did one heck of a display of his feelings and soul wrenching emotions this week. It hurts the reader to think that a person can feel this way and yet its a raw and honest display of how the person is feeling about themselves or how they see themselves in the mirror.

    The word usage and specs of metaphor's are just that powerful.... excellent!

  • 6 years ago

    by Brenda

    Stephen, we are all beautiful in our own way. We are also our own worse critics. What matters most is what is inside us. Being a decent honest human. From our conversations I have not seen this awful person you describe. You are warm and caring and deserve all the good in your life. Hugs my friend-

  • 6 years ago

    by Catchy

    There’s no reply button but let me reply from here ^^ @Cj Maleney, You are right. Body image, expectations whatever.. formed from different people’s standard we don’t really even need to follow. No matter what people say it is what we think of ourselves that matters. I’ve written a poem something (just a little) similar before.

    (@IdTakeABulletForYou just noticed, I double sent my last comment. Sorry for that. You may remove it if you wish)

  • 6 years ago

    by deeplydesturbed

    Im glad its nominated S..
    You know I disagree with the content, but thats my personal opinion of you..

    The depth and emotion you put into each piece of writing always amazes me.. This piece being no different..

    Thank you for sharing x

  • 6 years ago

    by Catchy

    Honest, emotional and relatable. Nicely done. A well written piece about self image.

    Though some may not relate with another’s poor self image and sometimes even assume that we are just overreacting. They don’t know of the pain of actually not wanting to see yourself in the mirror but I know. Self-esteem is even harder to build when we’ve already accepted how poorly we look physically.

    But hoping that someday, things will turn out good for you. And like what they always say, what’s inside ourselves is what truly matters.

    Take care.

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