You built a fire

Winter was never my favorite time of
the year.
It had only ever brought me heart ache and anxiety;
Things I was never really good at coping with.
It’s almost like my mind started to shut
down in September as the fear and panic of being left alone
to freeze in the cold like I have been so many times before came creeping into the
back of my mind;
Making me Sabotage what I had going for me
and put my walls up high in order to keep
from getting hurt.
I’d either stay cooped up in my apartment
reading books or get lost in working too much to keep my mind off of it all;
Trying to avoid allowing myself to get into the state where all I did was sleep.
But once I met you the cold didn’t feel so deadly anymore.
Instead it was beautiful-
And I found myself getting lost in flurries of kisses with you,
Watching as the fear and insecurities dissipated over time with each holding of our hands and brushes of lips to our foreheads.
You came into my life with your warmth and love and I didn’t have to be scared of being left in the cold anymore
because when it was too cold for body heat-
You built a fire to keep me warm.