I like how your poems have a narrative voice - your poetry is direct and personal. Your voice isn’t intrusive though, and it takes some skill to write as you do without talking AT the reader!
I enjoy how you turned abstract ideas into tangible ideas here. You sipped disappointment, you dosed safety, you slept with a mantra. Individually, they probably would sound out of place and incredulous but together, they are fitting.
I do think, critically speaking, your poetry is often a bit of a mouthful, haha, as in, sometimes the language is suffocated with other language, but this is not always the case, and I would hate if your style was altered in any way. It’s just a thought I had whilst reading the third paragraph. Sometimes the vocabulary is harsh, and very polysyllabic!
Your message about a lingering or failed relationship or friendship? hits home. The final quotation is a beautiful bookend to a imagery rich poem. Accomplished as always.