Guilt

*This is still a work in progress, but here's an initial draft*

I’m heavy with guilt when I am with you
Like an anchor tied to my ankle
pulling me
down
down
further

I’ve reached rock bottom
where no words are able to escape
My head sinking
down
down
further

Hundreds of thoughts all screaming
“say something, anything”
“show him you still care”

Those feelings of joy; the rush of love
like a thousand yellow daisies
surrounding the room with brightness

Happiness
A feeling I am the most uncomfortable with
Deny until my head sinks
down
down
further

Relief comes in the form of sadness
Comfort amongst total disarray
embrace it

Let it encompass every part of my being
that’s more like it
the most familiar feeling

Bring it up
higher
higher
almost there

“say something, anything”
“show him you care”
I’ll keep this deep seated feeling